You Win!

In love? What was it all about anyway? Is it love that I’m experiencing right now? How can I tell if it is love or not?

I’m losing my mind (sigh). I can’t stop thinking of you. It is like being in a battle then suddenly, a bright light coming from afar engulfed my anger and turned it into a feeling of infinite happiness. I can see the light coming closer and closer to me. I hurriedly look for something to grip on because it has something that makes me feel afraid, something that penetrate up to my spine. Making my heart skip a beat and lead my brain to paranoia. I see good things around me trying to show me how good it would be to lose my grip and let the light forever conquer me. Instead, I even hold tighter. Fearing everything is just a trick, an illusion that could ruin everything that I’ve fought for.

I can’t manage to love you. Not now, when everything seems to be fine. Everything seems to be perfect. But then, you came to my life. You start filling my world with angels singing from the clouds. Make me believe that there’s still much to have for. Make me strive more for there’s so much in life to enjoy. Make me believe that loving you is the only thing that matters to me. But you know what, you succeeded. Because I love you now and I won’t let my dreams pass before my eyes.

And another thing, I wanted you to know…

I lose grip….